鳥--不舉成名天下知

我慎重考慮要不要把這篇丟上來，

到目前唯一一篇對象不同的。

   前陣子忽然醒覺到，                                                          
                                                                               
   我的年紀已經追上了妳的二分之一了。                                          
                                                                               
   什麼叫「長大後時間過的會特別快」，也慢慢的感受到了。                        
                                                                               
                                                                               
   因為開始必須把時間分送給別人，工作、親人、朋友、伴侶，                      
                                                                               
   所以自己剩下的時間越來越少，                                                
                                                                               
   然後猛一醒悟時已經又不知道流逝了多少時間。                                  
                                                                               
                                                                               
   對於這些接受我分送時間人的人們，                                            
                                                                               
   說不希望他們同等的回報是矯情了些；                                          
                                                                               
   但說真的，                                                                  
                                                                               
   也沒有必然要從他們身上得到些什麼，畢竟這也是甘願的選擇。              

      
                                                                                                                                                
   村上龍說過：                                                                
                                                                               
   「我們藉由發掘跟別人的不同來確定自己的存在。」                              
                                                                               
   說真的，                                                                    
                                                                               
   我們好像也必須藉著別人的掛心跟懷念來肯定自己的價值。

              
   這種心情你很清楚的曾經傳遞給我過，                                          
                                                                               
   但我好像沒有很清楚的回應過你。

                                                   
                                                                               
   我在想你有沒曾經很難過的找不到自己，                                        
                                                                               
   面對著有時認不清楚妳的外婆、這個自己照顧著自己的家庭，                      
                                                                               
   跟看似不太關心這一切的我。                                                  
                                                                                                                                                
   無論找不找到的答案是什麼，                                                  
                                                                               
   可是我們都還是很努力的想盡辦法做著自己，                                    
                                                                               
   然後暗自期待別人會將這些放在心上、收藏在某個角落。                          
                                                                               
                                                                               
      何謂伴侶                                                                 
                                                                               
            從看著、牽著，然後抱著。                                           
                                                                               
      何謂親子                                                                 
                                                                               
            從抱著、牽著，然後看著。                                           
                                                                               
                                                                               
     無論如何，到最後這些關係總有離合，                                        
                                                                               
     我們也只能懷念及感恩著這些曾在身邊佔有一席之地的人們，                    
                                                                               
     繼續努力的為這些人曾經為我付出走著、做著、分享著。                                                                                         
                                                                               
     所以我是真的感受得到的，                                                  
                                                                               
     有關於我現在可以做的可以說的或擁有的一切。                                
                                                                               
     如果我曾經做了什麼或影響過別人什麼而那些是好的，                          
                                                                               
     我覺得那是因為妳在我身後看著我的關係。                                    
                                                                               
                                                                               
     我對於妳曾經給過我的深深感謝，                                            
                                                                               
     對於我所還沒能讓你感受到的我的感謝也希望你可以理解，                      
                                                                               
     我很抱歉，但我很感謝，而且我很愛妳。                                      
                                                                               
                                                                               
     我會繼續努力的做著我認為正確的事情。                                      
                                                                               
                                                                               
     母親節快樂。